Gisele Bndchen is grateful for all the lessons shes learned in her split from Tom Brady but its clearly still difficult to discuss.

The supermodel opened up about her divorce from the former NFL quarterback in a candid special called IMPACT x Nightline: Gisele Bndchen: Climbing the Mountain , which was released Thursday on Hulu.

Speaking to ABCs Robin Roberts, Bndchen said that it was heartbreaking to experience the end of a marriage.

I think the phrase you used was the death of a dream, Roberts said, referencing comments that the supermodel made in a Vanity Fair profile last year. Roberts then asked her, How are you?

Well, when you say, Bndchen said, trailing off as she got visibly emotional and turned away from the camera.

Sorry, guys, I didnt know, she said, raising her hand to the crew as she paused. Can I have a little moment?