Busy Philipps opened up on Instagram about how devastated she was when her talk show Busy Tonight was canceled last year.

On New Years Day, the Dawsons Creek alum shared a series of almostgrams images that she almost posted to her social media page when she got the bad news in April.

The first one features a visibly sad Philipps in front of a mirror. The caption recounts the moment she learned Busy Tonight wasnt being renewed:

I flew to Dallas to shoot commercials over the weekend for Michaels. When my plane took off, the song that came on shuffle was my favorite Deerhunter song He Would Have Laughed. I felt like it was a good sign. When I landed, my manager texted me to call her. Which I did. And she told me E! would not renew my show after the order was finished in a month. It was effectively cancelled.

The 40-year-old said she was blindsided because her most recent texts with the head of E were about marketing for the show.