Andrew Garfield is earning raves and awards buzz for Tick, Tick... Boom! but his performance in the movie musical carries a deeply personal significance, too.
In an emotional appearance on The Late Show With Stephen Colbert Monday, the actor explained how playing Rent composer Jonathan Larson in the film helped him to process the grief he experienced after losing his mother, Lynn, to pancreatic cancer in 2019.
I love talking about her, by the way, so if I cry, its only a beautiful thing, Garfield explained. This is all the unexpressed love, the grief that will remain with us until we pass because we never get enough time with each other, no matter if someone lives till 60, 15, or 99.
So I hope this grief stays with me because its all the unexpressed love that I didnt get to tell her, he added. And I told her every day. We all told her every day. She was the best of us.
Directed by Lin-Manuel Miranda , Tick, Tick... Boom! follows Larson during his struggling artist days in New York before he wrote Rent. Approaching his 30th birthday without a major theatrical credit to his name, the composer finds himself at a personal and professional crossroads.
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